Moment by Moment...An Ageless Process

OK, I've had it! Most of you that comment on my blog, say wonderful, supportive things, and I deeply appreciate it...but those of you that are making inane comments about my "videos" and "pictures", obviously are accessing my blog through my website - which has plenty of video clips and pictures...for a reason! I am a senior myself, who has and is working with other seniors and special populations, AS WELL AS the younger, general public, by teaching classes, giving workshops and working one on one with those that need it.
The website is its own thing, separate from the personal nature of this blog. This blog is for my musings, my "thinking out-loud"; sharing the thoughts and feelings I have about life at this stage, my success - or lack of it, my knowledge and sense of wonder (still) at the miracle of the human body and our amazing brain that so beautifully support each other...most of the time.
I'm not adverse to genuine comments and even criticism, but please take the time to actually LOOK at all the info on the website, before you jump to conclusions about my lack of expertise.
If there is one thing I've learned in these 72, almost 73 years, it's that jumping to conclusions...about anything, can lead to loss...of the truth, of important information, of meaningful relationships, of life changing experiences - and on, and on, and on...
So, Thank You once again, to those of you who "get me". Those that don't, take the time to try.
n

I am facing an interesting, but very frustrating situation. Every day, I get many, many g-mails from readers of this blog. Some of those same comments also show up here on my dashboard. The problem is this:
First of all, I have tried emailing the writers of these comments back, but my emails are always returned as "un-deliverable". Whether that is my servers problem or that the addresses are not legitimate, is one question. The other is, I get virtually the exact same comment from different senders names, i.e., Chinese Dating, Catholic Dating, On-Line Dating, Affair, etc. There is also a set of readers ( who I love and appreciate) with different "Woodworking.... addresses. Some say they are in Florida, some in Texas, some in Carolina....
I've had many, many comments from "On-line Army Knowledge' and "Mega-Video", as well as others, who write me day after day. Who are you?
I genuinely want to converse with you, but - are the multiple same comments just to get your name out? Or do you really want to talk?
If the latter is true, send an email with your personal email address, and I'll respond. I got many today from addresses about "re-po cars'. One comment asked why I had been relying on videos...what's up with that/
I have never had a video on my blog. I do have many short clips on YouTube, for my Breathworks For Your Brain program, but not here.
I want to go back to writing my deepest knowledge, feelings and experience, about the body, the brain and life "Moment by Moment"
Help me do that by creating genuine communication. I'm only using my gmail for the blog and my website, but a serious reader/potential friend would have other access. Remember, I'm a 72 yr. old woman, who is serious about my work, my message and the blessing of GENUINE encounters with others. That's what we're here for...to learn from one another. It's up to you.
n

Hello Dear Blog readers,

This is to say thank you to all who send me comments on my musings. Most of the remarks are legitimate, some appear to just be chances to get their name on the web. To those who make genuine remarks about my content, writing style or desire to create a conversation...I have tried without success to email the addresses that appear on the comments. All my attempts come back as "not deliverable". Some comments are in English that is sketchy, as tho coming from another country, if that is so, Thank you even more for your interest. Some of you like "Army Knowledge Online" write almost daily...who are you, and do you seriously want to communicate? If so, then say so in a more personal way, and provide me with an actual email, and I'll contact you. That goes for all who are genuine followers. The world is a little scary these days, and at 72...almost 73, I'm not sharing any personal info...so if you really want to share thoughts, it's up to you..."out there".
n

This last day of the year, always has huge import for me...I feel like a child, waiting for Christmas morning, to see what the new year will bring. There have been many miracles this year...honest-to-God miracles.
I saved my own life, just by being aware of my body, telling me there was something going wrong. I published two books, I had not expected to really do...difficult and costly, but worth it. They are books dear to my heart, and now they are out there, with many more to come.
I survived an illness of the heart, that wasn't physical (although at times it felt that way),and learned more about myself, once again. I have spent this life as a seeker of the truth...my truth - and that has often been very difficult, but it is my life's journey, so I continue to walk it.
I ended this year, by beginning a practice I did the years of 1987-1988, meditating on three symbols of Pythagoras: A circle with a dot in the center, an equal-sided cross and an Isosceles triangle. You meditate (eyes open) on the symbol, for as long as you can, then close your eyes, and see the negative image on the inside of your eyelid. You do this for 5 min. on each symbol, alternating eyes open/eyes closed. The symbols have powerful meanings...for each of us, not necessarily the same, but this practice changes you, profoundly. I did it every day for two years, when I first began this "conscious" spiritual journey. So....whether 2012 is the end of the world or not, this is a new beginning for me...once again. Blessed New Year to you all.
n

There is something poignant about the ending - the closing of a year...it requires reflection, sometimes satisfying, sometimes regretful. Being regretful is, of course, an incredible waste of energy; but human nature being what it is - we all do it. I wrote earlier this year, about the fact that this had been a year of "wake-up" calls, and it has been. It has been a year of contrasts, conflicts, contradictions, confusion and oddly, also clarity. It has been a year of introspection and not as much circumspection as I might have had...but nevertheless, at 72, a year rich and full of experiences. Today, Christmas Day, I feel a heavy melancholy, that has settled on me like a thick fog...I feel the need to move carefully, because I'm not completely sure of where I've been, where I am or where I'm going...very unusual for me - usually so positive.
Having come close to death, actually, technically, BEING dead, while my heart was out of my body and I was on the heart-lung machine; I've done an unusual amount of reflection this year, and I'm determined to be wiser this new year opening up. That's the beauty of the opening of a New Year..It does present us the opportunity to set goals, state our hopes and wishes for the year in front of us, and as we grow older, and the opportunities for true change, internal change, become shorter...it's important to do our personal best, to achieve the internal, spiritual and physical changes we desire.
As I go through my own process, I wish you all, the best in your own endeavors for this coming year.
n